Original picture appeared in:Singing, Breath and Scalenes by: Paul Ingraham
2. Networking for Summer Associateships There comes a point in every law students' life where they must face the proverbial plunge into the profession of practicing law. As one of my fellow evening students put it, "you have to make a decision to take the leave the job you are working in and break into the field." While this is a natural and likely easy step for someone working part time or in a temporary field such as waitering or house cleaning, it is a much more difficult proposition for someone who has built a career. By all reason, those of us proffies (professional folk) do eventually hope to follow that evenstar of borrealis legalis into the glorious profession of legal practice, much like our sister jobbers (part time folk). But most of us assume that such a starry night will fall somewhere between the summer before our last year in school or after graduation. We sleep, perchance we dream of trading our current unsatisfactory positions for a first year job in the high pentadollaric to low sextadollaric range. N'er does our ambition lie with a $20 per hour clerking position w/o benefits or an unpaid intern/externship in lieu of our comfortable current positions.
That is what today's blog is all about: comfort zone. I believe that in order to succeed I must be willing to work outside of my comfort zone and take risks. This is not easy to do. In my own experience, I have put off extending myself on a voluntary and neophyte basis into the legal community for many reasons, and not all of them have to do with my 401K and benefits at my present position. There are also the personal concerns, such as having a wife to provide for and rent to make (mommy and daddy stopped paying a long time ago). Perhaps the biggest obstacle, in all honesty, was fear.
I can say that the balking I've done in September, then in October, again in November and lastly in December at sending out and interview for Summer Jobs had everything to do with fear. Since I am not at the top of my class (in fact, I just barely make the top 1/3), I felt intimidation at having to justify a 3.0 grade average to my potential employers. Also, I did not have any clue of what practice area I wanted to pursue. Regardless, I let these uncertainties deter me from taking any action whatsoever. The result: it is now the end of January. I have positively decided that I am passionate about Intellectual Property law and I am scrabbling to network and secure a job by any means necessary (even this blog).
Just to reflect, I want to highlight fallacy in what I did back in September: nothing (never a good option). In fact, I lost faith in law school, becoming a lawyer or succeeding at all. This did me no good. It generated even more fear in me. Some would even call this neurotic: my solution to the anxiety of not getting a job was to not send out for any jobs, and not sending out for jobs actually caused me more anxiety and fear. When the solution is worse than the problem you need a change. I'd like to say I realized this in a reasonable time frame, but I didn't. In the back of my mind I had the nagging suspicion that I was not on track. I pondered questions such as would law school be another foregone opportunity that I allowed to have a minimal present impact in my life? Would I let fear enboldened by rationalization keep me from that which I had set out to accomplish? I had done that already with an acting career, and I still miss performing to this day.
Then it hit me: "I am not my fu*king khakis," oh the wisdom of Fight Club. I am not my law job. There is nothing keeping me from the career I want to pursue except myself. Rejection and failure is a natural part any experience and neither are to be feared or considered as final judgments. That privilege and responsibility belongs only to G-d himself. A missed opportunity b/c I wouldn't even show up is worse than showing up and being told that I am not right for the job. These thought pervaded my consciousness and raised my spirits. I felt a new power flow in. So what if I send out 1000 resumes and cover letters and not one of them garners a job? So what if I call every contact I know and they all tell me where to go? So what if I go into my 4th year of law school w/o a job in sight?
The truth is that "if I follow my bliss I will come to bliss." My undergrad, freshman year English Comp teacher used to say it to us all the time and the lesson has only recently become apparent to me. It doesn't matter what my career looks like to others, it only matters that I make a decision, show up and work at it with a vigor and a passion unmatched by what I've done before.
I want to work in the Intellectual Property field. Specifically, I want work with copyrights and trademarks, mostly focusing on Entertainment Law issues. They tell me this is a nigh impossible area of the law to break into. I must find a way. I have no idea what is in store, but I plan to use this space to deal with it all, keep my memory green and perhaps even generate possibilities that I had not considered before.
(In the next entry, Solutions in Law Student Networking - what has/is worked/ing for me and what hasn't)